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June 08 The old and the new :)It's not a lie if you believe it, it's not a mistake if you always repeat it.  Advice is what you ask for when you know the answer, you just wish you didn't!  Be yourself...no-one can tell you that you are doing it wrong.  & I'm telling myself it's ok, cause Cinderella didn't meet her Prince till the very end....  Don't base your decisions on the advice of people who don't have to deal with the results.  If you don't understand my silence...you don't deserve my words.  True friendship isn't about being there when its convient, it's about being there when it's not.  In this world people are always going to say dpn't do this, don't do that and definatley don't do this. You know what your going to end up with? Nothing to do!   No-one ever believes the offical spokeswoman, but everyone believes an unidentified source....  Prove to me your not average and we'll be on the same page. Cause the only difference I see in guys is their different names.  Don't stop loving me when you find out who I am!  She pulled the petals off a daisy one by one. He loves me, he loves me not. Silly girl you already know the answer. March 18 Paddy's Day :)It's 2 AM and she's lying on her bed staring at the ceiling
All these thoughts in her head, Just so confused Doesn't know what to do, In need of someone to talk to but doesn't know who. She just lies there. Her eyes fixed on the ceiling with her headphones blaring. but nothing she's hearing  Sometimes you just need
to cry and be sad. You need to break down and be torn apart. You need to learn how to pick yourself up and put yourself back together. Sometimes, the only way to be happy is to give into sadness first. HAPPY ST PADDY'S DAY PEOPLE :)
March 14 I heart you :)did I ever even matter?
I want someone to share my secrets with,
Of course we'll meet new people and fall in love again. We're going to hate each other and seek out to hurt each other, but we'll always have a history that won't let us forget about each other no matter how much we want to.
I'd like to still think I never did those things or never said that to you. But the truth is, I did and that's a part of me. I make mistakes, and I know who I am because of them. I lost you because of it, but to lose you meant to gain myself.
March 09 Confidence?
We are all guilty of saving old messages from someone who became really special in our lives.
Going to familiar places giving us that small twinge in our hearts and smiles on our faces.
It's simply bittersweet because every time that person crosses our mind,
We remember the instances when we were complete.
confidence is the inner voice that saysyou're becoming what you're capable of being 
When you're at the top, remember what it felt like at the bottom.When you're at the bottom, remember what it felt like at the top. Good doesn't last forever. Neither does bad.
It's like when you've been listening to music for hours, and suddenly the play-list ends; that, crushing absence of sound, the deafening silence. And you start to hear things that you missed before... the rain on your window, the TV in the next room. And it makes you wonder, what else could you hear if you listened beyond the song you were playing?
watch your thoughts; they become words.
March 05 happiness...sometimes it's like when i finally start to become happy, someone has to come in and say "woah, she's happy again, better crush it."
 i didn't like it when you talked about her, but i hated when i had to pretend i was happy for you.
 March 04 Be my guest....I'm just a girl...trying to find a place in this world!
 If people sat outside
and looked at the stars every night, i bet they'd live a lot differently.  life doesn't hurt until you think about,
how much who you've lost along the way, and how much of it was your fault.  Rumors are vicious, Talk is
Words are malicious, Secrets you should Gossip is fake && will make the deepest cut. So learn from the past, &&  He asked me if I was alright, and shocked; I looked him him. "After ignoring me, you ripped out my heart, threw it on the ground, and jumped on it several times. Yeah; I'm alright, dumbass.
Be my guest, rain on
my parade; but I have the biggest freaking umbrella you've ever seen February 08 Wish upon a star.....I wish I had a good guy to miss me.
 This is the girl who has had her heart broken; cried for continuous hours; yelled and screamed for help; this is a girl who turned her back on the world… A girl who did nothing, but want someone to want her back!
My heart is screaming “TELL HIM!”
If you think you can, you can. If you think you cant, you’re right.
January 17 Rant in a sort of quote form!And she often wonders if her little jokes of being alone forever are going to become reality....
He broke her...stamped on her heart. He will never understand that. Yet she would forgive him, talk to him like an old friend, just so she knows he is ok.
Even now...when she thought she was happy with herself and everything she had achieved, it only takes one insult from him to destroy her completly and it takes a long time for her to get back...
He asked if she was ok and what she wanted to say was "You destroy me, leave me to pick up the pieces of my broken heart, don't talk to me for two whole years as if i never existed, let me cry myself to sleep, because the only guy I cared for was you and you had cheated on me for a whole year and called me crazy when i started to have suspisions, so no i am not ok. Not ok with the fact that I have forgot you and then you come back!" But what she really said was "long time no speak I am boss how are you?" because she still clings to the fact that maybe he really did care. Silly right?
Talking to him again, made her think of the person she used to be. The one who would do anything to hold him, kiss him, speak to him, just see him. She realised she had come along way in 2 years. Now she just wanted to know he was ok and for him to know that she was living without him.
What did he see when he looked at her photo's? Did he see someone who he was glad to have got rid of or did he realise he had made a big mistake?
The barriers I built, I built because he hurt me. No-one can get close to me now, because I either get scared and run or I hurt them like he hurt me. Funny how when he comes back into my life, the barriers don't scream "Leave me alone" they feel like they lift.
Don't get me wrong, I hate him. I hate everything about him. The way he looks, what he does, how he speaks, how he walks, how he thinks he is better than me. I hate him. The pain, the tears and the arguments I went through, just for nothing, but more pain, tears and arguments. But is it so wrong that I still care? Not love, not even like, but just care.
If I could have anything just for a day it would be the ability to see what other people are thinking. I would like to know who my real friends are, who the bitches are, who the backstabbers are, but most importantly the ones who say they love me, just to see if they really mean it. Imagine having that power. Imagine, how much pain could be avoided.
January 05 Hurt...yeah you did hurt me.If you can imagine it, you can create it. If you can dream it, you can become it.
&& here she goes again. She swallows her tears with her heart on her sleeve, puts on her fake smile, and acts like the girl everyone wants her to be.
Its funny how the people that hurt you the most are the ones who said they never would.
she sat there all that time ago and said to me people who leave were never meant to be in your life, your better than them. Then she left. And the thing is I kinda stupidly need her, because she held me together. Without her I am not me. My best friend..more like a sister. Now someone who I dont know. and that makes me sad. Sad because she doesnt care. QuizChapter One: The Basic Questions
01. What is your first name? Lauren 02. Do you have any middle names (if so, what are they?): Loren, Lol, Lollypop. Little Lol. 03. What is your last name? (Optional): Gorst 04. What is your date of birth?: December 14th 05. Where were you born?: Liverpool 06. What is your starsign?: Sagitarius Chapter Two: A Bit More About You 01. Are you more of an introvert or an extrovert?: I dont really know. I am a bit of both. 02. What are your favourite things to do in your spare time?: See my mates, spend time with family, go to town, chill. 03. Do you have any hidden passions?: Well there not hidden i dont think, but I like writing. 04. What are your guilty pleasures?: I dunno lol! 05. What are your ambitions?: To have a good career and children 06. Are you career-minded?: Yeah deffo 07. What is most important to you in life?: My family and friends 08. What are your strengths?: Writing, being me. 09. What are your weaknesses?: Chocolate and music. 010. What are your bad habits?: smoking and biting my nails 011. How would you describe your personality?: A complete nutter who is just waiting for someone to understand me :) Chapter Three: Relationships 01. Do you have many friends?: Yeah 02. Who is your bestfriend?: Pam and Kelly 03. Do you find it hard making friends with people?: some people yeah. 04. Are you shy around new people?: Yeah deffo. 05. Do you fall out with people quite easily?: Nope it takes alot to piss me off. 06. Or are you quite easygoing?: Well once u piss me off i never forget lets just say that. 07. What do you like to do with your friends?: go to town, shop, do nothing and just be random. 08. Can you tell your friends everything?: Yeah 09. Do you have a lot of friends online?: Nope except my real friends. 010. Are you outgoing/sociable?: Yeah 011. Do you prefer your own company?: Nope I like spending time with people. 012. How do you get along with your family?: I love them they are boss. 013. Who is more understanding, your mum or your dad?: Well I dont no my dad so my mum and she probably would be anyway cause she is boss. 014. Can you tell your parents anything?: Yeah 015. Do you feel that they don't understand the real you?: No I reckon she pretty much gets it, just not the way I feel at the min. 016. Do you fight with your parents often?: Yeah but it always sorts out. 017. If so, what about?: All kinds of shit. 018. Do you have any siblings?: My Hannah 019. Do you get along with them?: Yeah 020. Do you have a big family?: Nope Chapter Four: Appearances 01. How important is the way you look?: Not very. I dont see looks as the real person, I see inside. I mean of course if i see someone hot i do think "wow" but if they are knobs then they are not beautiful are they? 02. Are you very self-concious?: VERY. 03. If so, what about, particularly?: Just all kinds. 04. Are you underweight/average/overweight/obese?: Average 05. What do you think of the increasing number of obesity?: It needs to be sorted, but I think the way people call size 12 fat is a bit stupid. Thats not fat its average. size 0 is too skinny and its not attractive. woman were meant to have curves. 06. What do you think of anorexia?: Its sad for the people who go through it. People need to be conmfortable in their own skin. 07. Have you ever had an eating disorder or known someone who has?: I've known people. 08. Are you happy with your body?: Yeah its ok. 09. How would you describe your body shape?: Just curvy. 010. What about your ideal body shape?: Curves are beautiful it defines who you are. Just be happy with yourself right? 011. Do you think there is too much pressure on teenage girls to be skinny nowadays?: Yeah deffo. Clothes have got smaller sizes and people are under so much pressure to be "perfect" 012. Does it make you sad?: Pissed off. 013. What do you think of skinny celebrities like Nicole Richie, Hilary Duff, Lindsay Lohan etc? Do you think they are bad role models?: They make mistakes and we get to see it everyday. but they need to realise that they are affecting other people too. They are famous so they cant just think of themselves. i know that sounds bad, but its true. 014. What do you think of girls under the age of twelve dressing sluttier nowadays?: I hate it. Inocence has gone. 015. Have you ever dieted?: nope 016. If so, were you successful?: -- 017. Has anyone ever told you you were overweight?: Yeah. 018. How tall are you?: 5 ft 8 019. Are you comfortable with your height?: Yeah its ok 020. Has anyone ever told you that you could model?: Nope lol! 021. Do you think you are pretty?: I dont think I am pretty, but I am not ugly either. In between I guess. 022. Do people often tell you so?: Yeah. Only to make me feel better tho 023. What colour are your eyes?: Brown 024. What colour is your natural hair?: Brown 025. What colour is it currently?: Auburn 026. If you dye it, how often do you do so, and do you use any particular brand?: Every month nearly and just anything I like. 027. What colour is your skin?: White. 028. Do you tan easily or are you pale?: I tan easily, but there is no sun. 029. How do you style your hair usually?: up in a pony or with a hairband in. 030. How would you describe your dress sense?: Ok 031. Do you actually follow fashion?: Nope 032. Where are your favourite places to buy clothes?: New Look, Internatonal 033. Are you a shopaholic?? No I hate shopping 034. Do you generally take a lot of pride in your appearance?: Nope Chapter Five: Hygiene 01. Do you prefer to take baths or showers?: Baths 02. Do you shower/bathe everyday?: Yeah 03. Do you wash your hair everyday?: Yeah 04. Do you ever fight with siblings to use the bathroom?: Nope 05. Do you apply your make up in the bathroom?: Nope. My room. 06. Do you always remove your make up before bed?: Nah 07. Do you always wash your hands after using the toilet?: Yeah 08. Do you hate public toilets?: Yeah they are nasty like. 09. Do you clean the bathroom after you have used it?: Nope 010. How many times a day do you clean your teeth?: Twice 011. Do you worry about having bad breath?: Nope dont think about it. 012. Has anyone ever told you that you have?: Nope 013. Do you use mouthwash?: Nope 014. Dental floss?: Nope 015. When you sneeze, do you cover your face?: Yeah 016. When you cough do you cover your mouth?: Yeah 017. Pads or tampons?: Pads 018. Do you always change your underwear everyday?: Yeah of course 019. Do you wear deodorant everyday?: Yeah 020. How often do you thoroughly clean your bedroom?: Once a month lol! 021. How often do you wash your clothes?: Every day. Chapter Six: Sexuality 01. How old were you when you first started to think about sex?: Erm...I dunno tbh. 02. Are you straight, bisexual, or gay?: Straight 03. How old were you when you first started to notice the opposite/same sex?: Erm I think about 11 04. Have you ever seriously pondered about your sexuality?: nope I always knew i was straight. 05. Have you ever had a same sex experience?: Nope 06. How old were you when you had your first boyfriend/girlfriend?: 13? I think 07. What about your first kiss?: Properly I was 15. 08. Did you have big expectations about what your first kiss would be like?: Yeah but it was so much shitter. lol! 09. So, what was it like?: It was the wrong person and the wrong time. 010. When did you start to think about sex?: I'm pretty sure I was already asked this. 011. Have you already lost your virginity?: Nosey :) 012. Did you find that there was a lot of pressure on you from your peers to lose it?: Nope not really 013. Have you ever been in love?: No. 014. Do you currently have a boyfriend/girlfriend?: Nope 015. What would be your ideal date? Doing nothing. I can honestly say it wouldnt cost any money it would just be walking or driving to somewere and sitting and talking. 016. Describe your ideal boyfriend/girlfriend: Someone who understands me. justs wants to be with me, not change me. 017. Do you still have celebrity crushes?: i like people but not fantasise. lol! 018. Do you believe in sex before marriage?: Do it if you want like. Chapter Seven: Teen Issues 01. Were/are you ever bullied in school?: Yeah 02. Or did you bully anyone?: Nope 03. What was/is your status in school ?i.e, popular, geek etc?: I dont know. I was me. No-one will ever be able to say I wasnt. 04. Did/do you enjoy school life?: Yeah most. 05. What do you think of those stereotypical high school cliques?: they are bad. But every school has them. So I suppose its true. 06. Did/do you belong to one?: Nope 07. Would you say you are rebellious?: I got that way 08. Do you lie to your parents a lot?: Nope 09. Ever snuck out?: Yeah 010. How old were you when you first drank alcohol?: 13 011. Do you drink on a regular basis?: Not anymore 012. Do you smoke?: Yeah 013. Have you ever tried smoking?: ^^ 014. What do you think of the decision to ban smoking in public places?: Its a good idea, but bad organising. 015. Do you have a myspace?: Yess. 016. Facebook?: Yeah 017. Have you ever been clinically depressed?: I feel that way at the min. i am getting into a rut. 018. Have you ever self harmed?: Nope 019. Have you ever done drugs?: Weed. 020. What do you think about teenage pregnancies?: I think that its ok if they know what they are doing. I mean its a big responsibilty! 021. What do you think of underage sex?: Do as you wish. December 21 This is life....This is to pushing on the splintered walls of the world, trying to break free.
This is to 4 a.m. phone calls and tears that can't be wiped away by tissues.
This is to a cancer patient dying in the end, because she wasn't strong enough anymore.
This is to red wine and cigarettes on the bathroom floor, to the boy that didn't love her back.
This is to valued letters and notes that got lost in the washer, torn into a million little pieces.
This is for unwanted help, and most needed attention;; to the girls that put up away messages in hopes he'll understand.
This is to not only the guys being heartbreakers, but the girls as well.
This is to the victims and the victimizers;; to the people that couldn't help it when they bled.
This is to those that have their hearts ripped from their sleeves.
This is to believing every lie.
This is to being sick to my stomach just thinking about him loving someone else.
This is to the pain I hold in every day.
This is to the escape I thought I found in him.
This is to those who live with a heart that has long since been broken.
This is to all the "what if?" 's and the wishes that'll never come true.
This is to feeling so desperate, but can't help it, because all you want is them back.
This is to all the words you never said and to the ones we choke on.
This is to holding your breath in that one perfect moment and being terrified that you'll blink and it'll all be gone.
This is to when is it all gone and you feel like you have nothing left.
This is to those who never got to say goodbye after saying something harsh before they left.
This is to everything you thought once meant something and never did.
This is to those who feel better arching than empty.
This is to what didn't happen.
This is to the tomorrows that are just another thing to get through.
This is to how I wish I'd never come that close to loving you.
This is to realizing that you are your own (and everyone else's) worst enemy.
This is to those who are dying to be alive.
This is to knowing a relationship may or may not work out, but taking the leap anyway.
This is to sticking your finger down your throat, in hopes that they'll accept you.
This is to every tear you've wasted on people who never cared.
This is to sitting and waiting for your phone to ring.
This is to being ignored and trying to be imperfectly perfect.
This is to finding him, and holding on tight.
This is to the girl behind that smile.
This is to those movies and magazines, the ones that make girls stop eating, stop breathing....stop caring.
This is to wanting to speak the most honest words you've ever spoken in your life, not knowing whether they should bring you closer t o living or dying.
This is for all of us who cry with dry eyes.
This is for those who fall in love in their dreams, and wake up only to wish to be sleeping again.
This is to not knowing, and this is to not wanting to know.
This is to true love never ignited.
This is to prose and poetry and those with tender hearts.
This is to those who'll never get it.... those who wonder where love starts.
This is to that one person who you think is the kindest, sweetest, smartest, and most beautiful person ever.
This is to that one person who meant everything.
This is to losing that one person.
This is to loving them, but having to say no to them.
This is to having that special person in your arms again, but knowing it won't last.
This is to those nights where you just can't sleep because every word they said to you replays, over and over.
This is to those days when you just stay at home, because you heart is too weak to take in laughing.
This is to those nights on the sidewalk where the two of you were the two of you again after so many years of changing.
This is to him telling your secrets that no one else is supposed to know.
This is to the girl that puts on his jacket when she's cold.
And this is to the guy that catches her smelling his scent.
This is to letting go just as they start to hold on.
This is to beautiful boys who are just beautiful friends.
This is to the ones that sit at home, lonely, hoping to find someone just like them.
This is to the people who constantly want to bring you down because you were successful and they couldn't come close.
This is to the boys that turned our hearts to glass just to shatter them and use the pieces to cut the wounds a little deeper.
This is to all the times I wish I had said no.
This is to all the times I knew what he was doing and I ignored it.
This is to those tingly butterfly feelings you get when they're around.
This is to the night when feelings changed.
This is to the broken mirror and the blood on your ankle.
This is to the very first kiss.
This is to eye contact, avoiding it, keeping it, trying to hide it.
This is to feeling emotionless, and watching yourself bleed to know you still feel it.
This is to the girl that never gives up, this is to the boy that lets her give up.
This is for teaching yourself how to care, when it's the last thing you want to do.
This is to the ones who still care, reciting promises of forever
. This is to the fish that killed off all the others in the tank and now just won't die.
This is to being so in love that it fucking scares you.
This is to the words never spoken.
This is to the fragile ones and the ones that never let them bruise.
This is to those who attempt perfect, but know they'll never achieve it.
This is to those who fight for the weak and hopeless.
This is to those who never give up on their dreams;; no matter what.
This is to the girls who pretend to be super girl just to hide their pain.
This is to the boys that made them hurt.
This is for the children who cry themselves to sleep at night, wishing that their parent's loved them.
This is to those who survived and have become stronger, better people.
This is to those who love that person more than they'll ever know, and have to live every day wondering if they really care about you too.
This is to life. My perfect man?I want a guy...
Who would move the hair away from my eyes and then kiss me. Hold my hand in line at the mall and make all the girls jealous.
A pretty boy ;; but not so pretty that I feel awkward.
Someone who would think I was beautiful if I dressed so trashy it was classy.
Someone who would sing to me at a random moment.
Who would let me sleep on their shoulder.
Someone who is more goofy than romantic, but knows the right things to say at the right times.
A boy who would beat the crap outta someone if they called me fat.
I want someone who would call me 3 times a day if he went away.
Someone who would let me gossip to him and he would just smile and agree with everything I said.
He would throw stuffed animals at me when I acted dumb, then dog pile on me and kiss me a million times.
We would bet kisses or who could beat who on a playstation's game that was a million years old.
&& someone would would make fun of me just to make me laugh.
He would surprise me with 25 cent rings and we would have a contest of how far we could spit our gum.
He would take me to the park and put his arms around me and give me bear hugs all the time.
Someone who would kiss my neck, just to have a reason to tell me how much he likes my new perfume.
And at night, we would dance in our pj's.
We would always take pictures in photo booths.
He would never turn down a trip to the boardwalk and we'd play tag on the beach.
He would tell all his friends about me and smile when he did it.
We would sit on the kitchen floor and eat peanut butter and jelly sandwitches.
And we'd make out in the pouring rain.
He would tell me when he didn't think something looked good and I wouldn't mind.
He would try to teach me how to play the guitar, but we would just end up laughing at each other.
He would run his fingers through my hair, even if it was dirty.
He would share lollipops with me and get along with all of my friends.
He would never be afraid to say I love you in front of his friends and he would argue about silly things with me then make up.
I want a boy who would take me to target just to make fun of some of the stuff there.
We would kiss at midnight on New Years and make funny faces at each other when we're on the phone.
I want a boy who would count the stars with me and be friends with my family.
I want someone who would stay home with me on a friday night just to watch movies together under the same blanket.
We would squirt water guns at each other in the house.
Someone who would tell me I'm beautiful, but not too often...someone who would look me in the eyes and tell me something serious that was also funny and make me promise not to laugh.
Someone who would make me laugh like no one else could.
Someone who would hold me closer than normal when I'm sick and would play with my hair.
We would buy tons of disposable cameras and take lots of pictures.
But mostly I want someone who would be my best friend and would never lie to me or break my heart....
I want a boy that will stay with me for always...he'll know you can never say I love you too many times.
But he knows not to say it if he doesn't mean it will all his heart.
He'll tell me we were like Nick && Jessica.
He'll give me his favorite hoodie so I can remember his scent.
He'll make me build a bears and he won't care how silly he looks in a store with a bunch of second graders because he'd know it would be special to me.
He'll stay home with me and watch The Notebook and he'll tell me he loved it, even though he didn't.
And the only person he would ever watch it with would be me.
He'll call me at 3 o'clock in the morning just to ask me what i'm doing.
He'll tell me he couldn't fall asleep because he was thinking about me, and he needed to hear my voice.
He can't walk next to me without holding my hand.
And he always whispers something sweet to me.
He'll take me to a concert to see his favorite band.
And he won't get embarressed to tell me he loves me in front of his friends.
When I cry, he'll tell me I'm too beautiful, and kiss every tear.
He'll always make me feel better because he knows that perfect things to say.
All of his friends will know we're in love.
He'll tell me I'm a princess && treat me like one too.
He'll love everything about me and tell me I'm perfect.
We'd always end up laughing at our silly fights.
Even if we're a million years old, butterflies will still go crazy inside of us.
Every time he kisses me, he'll tell me he'd die without me.
He'd surprise me by bringing me flowers when I'm having a bad day.
When we go out for ice cream, he'll put some on my nose, and I'll put it all over his face....&& we just never stop laughing.
He's interested in everything I have to say and cares about it.
He'll buy me jewelry and bouncy balls from vending machines.
He won't stop playing until he's won me a stuffed animal.
He'll take walks with me in the snow and we'll catch snowflakes on our tongues ;; he doesn't even like snow but I love it.
Everytime I hear his name, it takes my breath away.
With him, I can never win or lose....because everything about him is just wonderful.
PERFECT.
I'll be his everything and he'll be even more to me...he'll love me always.<3 December 19 Friends..Enemies...Past and the Presentpeople said i've changed so much.
well here's the honest truth. i grew up. i stopped letting people push me around. i learned that you can't always be happy. i accepted reality  It`s those moments when you drive around in a car full of friends around a town too small for you. Where you gasp for beath between each laugh. It`s about those moments where you get high off of just breathing in so deep, you feel your lungs getting cold. For a second, that split second, you don`t care. You don`t care about school, about parents, about money, about rules, or broken hearts. Who you care about are the kids sitting next to you. Cause it`s all we really need, isn`t it? Those kids next to you. The ones who make you feel invincible, even at your weakest points.
 Sometimes, Your friends can hurt you more than your enemies could ever do.
 you know someone is a true friend when,
you are about to break down & cry, but they will say the stupidest, most random thing just to see you smile i look at my friends then i look at me.
without my friends who would i be? my friends, my sisters, my shadow, my world. where would i be without my girls? December 05 truth?And she would change everything, everything just ask her.
Caught in the in between, a beautiful disaster, And she just needs someone to take her home. I feel so alone...
I am just so sad...
and I never feel happy anymore...
December 03 The only person you need to impress is yourself...the only person you need to impress is yourself.
Keep the picture, they never change. Only the people in them do.
Drama, emotions, changes, tears, broken heart. And these are suppose to be the best years of our lives?
Hiding something doesn’t get you any where. Either you show your feelings or its pointless to have them.
November 23 I'm scared of lonely....Nobody believes the official spokesman,
but everybody trusts an unidentified source. You see that girl? Yeah, her. She seems so
You're supposed to be the leading lady
of your own life, not the supporting actress.  you think you're the only one going
through pain. well, here's something you should know: we're all in pain. some just choose to cover it, but people like you, who crave attention, like to tell the world. A box full of memories that
make you cry;Do you burn them to forget your pain?Or keep them to remember how great it all was?  The truth is, you don't know what's going to happen tomorrow.
Life is a crazy ride, and nothing is guaranteed.  I do what all women do. I think. I blame myself. I get lost in my failure.I hate myself sometimes. Sometimes I cry. More often I stare at the ceiling and wonder what is wrong with me.
 I'm scared of lonely....
November 11 Two faced....If you’re going to be two-faced, at least make one pretty.
I try to be pretty. I try to be nice. But, I know I’m not perfect in anyone’s eyes. Only I can change my life. No one can do it for me.
October 30 Perfect?How can someone seem so perfect, but yet they’re so wrong for you? xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx I’m not afraid of happy endings… I’m just afraid my life wont work that way. xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx She just couldn’t see how anyone could fall for her. xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx The good thing about fantasy is your prince is always perfect. But, if he turns out like all the rest and breaks your heart; you can always wake up and know its just a dream. xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
October 26 PhotosThat's just the way she is, and she has yet to hear;
that being herself is okay.  Love is like a violin. The music may stop now and then,
but the strings remain forever.  Its better to learn the hard way.
You wont make the same mistake the next time.      October 05 stop hoping...When we wake up in the morning, we have two simple choices: go back to sleep and dream, or wake up and chase those dreams.
  stop hoping,
start believing |
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